Limbo

So basically just a little update on what has happened since the last time I posted! Life is pretty much the same except my friendship with Cali is falling apart! I will explain it more in the near future but let's just say she has changed alot and not for the better in my opinion! I have taken to deleting her husband Jake from my friends on facebook because I don't need his poison in my life! I would rather not be associated with him! *sigh* I feel like I have a theme song for my life at the moment and that song is "Another one bites the dust" I swear I can't have friends or something! I am either extremely unlucky with friends or there is something about me that keeps me from being able to have them because just since May I have lost 3 of my dearest friends!! That can't be normal! *sigh* I don't really blame any of them for not wanting to be my friends.... I am a pitiful excuse for a person. I mean look at me! I am almost 22 years old, I have no job, I can't go to school cause I have no money, I still live with my mom and I hardly ever get to go anywhere and do anything with people my age! I am just a waste of useful air! I can't seem to get anything to change either!! I can't get a job no matter where I apply and I would go on a mission but my church records are stuck in limbo and can't seem to find their way to where I need them and besides I have never been "spiritual" enough to be accepted as a missionary anyway! Plus everyone I talk to says I can't go unless I can pay for it! So here I am still stuck and useless...
Yeah I really can't blame them for ditching me at this point.